Wednesday, September 26, 2012

One YEAR!

I almost let it pass me by........almost! Realized as I was heading to meet my Mom for dinner tonight that the date was the 26th. I then began to reflect on this date one year ago........and was humbled.

One year ago I had my first implant turned on. I'll never forget the emotions/thoughts running through my mind and body as I sat in the chair at Envoy Medical anxiously awaiting my activation. Being completely scared out of mind that the device may not work, or I may not like it. So much was riding on the moment; Lari's $30,000 savings mostly, but also 29 years of wholehearted desire.....Desire so strong I was scared my expectations were too high.

You see.......at this point  I was so very tired; tired of missing so much and tired of working so hard to get so little. I was becoming angry; angry at what I was missing out in my social life, but mostly with my kids. I was starting to find myself 'checking out' a little on my life. This was not me, this was not how I am or how I usually looked at life. Over the 29 years until that moment, I've rarely let myself get down.

Melinda turned the device on, and for me, time stood still for a few seconds. The moment it was on, I KNEW. I knew before anyone spoke, before any noise was made, I knew I was 'complete'! She told me to set the remote down, and I heard the 'clack' of it hitting the counter and I snapped back to reality. Instant relief flooded me.........Lari's money was well spent.....I liked my new ear right away! All the fears I had diminished and was replaced by joy like I've never felt. Then began me hearing my internal noises, then hearing my voice and freaking out, then crying, then freaking out over how weird all these things sounded inside my head.

Life has not been the same from that day......I have blossomed into this whole new person spiritually, mentally, etc. One year later I still experience new noises. I still play the 'what's that noise' game. I still am finding new joy in music and nature. The path I have had the opportunity of taking this last year has been an incredible one. I've met so many cool people, I've made new friends, I've traveled, I've done exciting things, I've written a book, I've built closer relationships with those around me. Most importantly........ My faith has only been strengthened furthermore. The words God gave me when my father n law died 'Hold Fast' have become a daily mantra of sorts. God blessed me with $60,000 dollars worth of new ears in a matter of hours through a matter of crazy events............nothing is impossible to me anymore! Nothing should seem impossible to any of us!

To all who have followed me on this journey, thank you so much....

Much love and blessings,
Sarah <3

PS- People constantly ask me about music........I love an eclectic mix from 80s rock to jazz and everything in between. I'd like to take this opportunity to ask you to help me bless a good friend......Josh Weathers! Check out his music online. He just released a new album 'Josh Weathers Band, Big Night in the City'. My girls and Sloan and I literally jam out and dance all over the house listening to Josh. I feel like if I were a musician......I'd be him. I love his sound! Please, go help a brother out and go buy some of his music, I promise you'll be glad you did :)


6 comments:

  1. Congrats to you- I still remember seeing this video and having it completely warm my heart. So thankful for technology and the blessings that come with it.

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  2. i still remember that video and show it around to my friends who still havent seen it yet...it was such a moving experience even for us watching the video the first time.

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  3. COngrats!!! So amazing :) I watched the video again to remember.

    xoxo
    Liesl

    woodsy-soiree.blogspot.com

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  4. Congrats! I have watched the video a few times and I cry every time. I am happy for you and hope you continue to enjoy life and all the things you were missing!
    HUGS!

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  5. Glad to know all is still going well. I cried again as I saw the video. Nothing is impossible for God. I'm glad you have a blog to keep us all updated. You and your family are in my prayers.

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  6. Hi there! I don't know how I stumbled on your video on Youtube, but it was very inspiring to me and even made me cry. I'd like to sincerely congratulate you, and wish you many beautiful sounds to experience throughout the years. Most people, including myself, don't know how it is to live without our hearing. And I really respect you for the kind of good person you are, and the challenges you had to overcome.

    I hear you've got a book out -- I will be sure to check it out.

    Congrats again, and all the best to you!

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